How Does Pornography Effect Acceptance of Our Sexual Nature?

Pornography certainly has a hold on our population. I recall when Playboy was considered pornographic, and when ordinary people were found to be readers, it was said that they “read it for the articles, not the pictures.” Of course, there was some truth to that, because Hugh Hefner, in his wisdom, crafted a very well-written and informative magazine that just so happened to be marketed mostly for its pictures of the Playmates. Remember the days when full nudity was taboo?

Along came Penthouse, Hustler and others and their full-frontal nudity – even including men in the pictorials. Penthouse had a letters section called The Forum which later became its own publication. I recall reading the Forum and being amazed at the letters (were they real?) describing sexual acts with amputees, threesomes with two men and one woman, etc. Of course, because these letters were off the beaten path, they were that much more alluring.

It was Forum, in fact, along with the male/female nudity of these magazines in general, that first piqued my interest in other men. I was not a “hard-core” reader of this soft-core pornography, but I definitely admit to having subscribed to Playboy for several years and also having read Penthouse regularly (these were the big two for a while), and then gravitating to occasional forays into Hustler and High Society, among others, later on.

Not long after the expansion of this soft-core market showcasing women’s bodies came Playgirl, which became a mainstream purveyor of naked men’s bodies. It was nowhere near the quality magazine that Playboy was, and in fact the nudity was rather puerile in nature. Nowhere did you find an erection, and most of the men posed with only a hint of a penis in the photo. Though it was common to see full genitalia in the “men’s” magazines, this “woman’s” magazine seemed to pretend that the male member did not exist.

I gravitated to Playgirl as a partial fulfillment of my fantasy life, viewing the pictures of these naked men with a bit of excitement, even despite the relative modesty of the pictorials. The magazine was available in conventional retail outlets, and was treated as the women’s equivalent of Playboy – just as the publishers intended, no doubt.

After a while, most of the men’s magazines routinely published pictorials featuring both men and women. Of course, the main thrust was to entice heterosexual men, so the majority of the content was explicit showcasing of the female form. When both sexes were pictured, however, it was typically in scenes that suggested specific sexual acts, such as fellatio or cunnilingus. The act of procreation – sexual intercourse itself – was seen to be a taboo, apparently; as nobody printed such pictures.

Frankly, with the preponderance of so many “men’s” magazines on the shelves, it was pretty easy to become inured to the photo spreads of all the lovely ladies. In my case, I became more interested in the male-female pairings that gave me an opportunity to view the naked men. Mind you, purchasing these “men’s” magazines allowed me to surreptitiously enjoy the sight of naked men without the embarrassment of having to plop down a copy of Playgirl on the counter for purchase. The store clerks had no clue, after all.

Not really recognizing my sexuality at that time (I was in denial, confused, accustomed to heterosexuality), I married. For a while (perhaps a couple of years or so), I lived my life as a heterosexual husband, and figured that I’d put my days of “experimentation” behind me. The homosexuality that I thought I had left behind, however, returned and I found ways to read gay porn without alerting anyone. My wife was a Playgirl reader also, though she had no notion that I was interested in it. Of course, on the occasions when she was not at home, I regularly perused her copy of the magazine. Eventually, our sex life became non-existent. Now, I didn’t realize it had anything to do with homosexuality, but chalked it up to her increasing size and our increasing inability to get along with each other.

Lacking a sex life, I turned more and more to pornography, both on telephone and in magazines. This was the age long before the internet, so it was print media that ruled the porn market. After a few more years of non-sexual and not-so-pleasant argumentative episodes, my wife and I split. I did begin dating other women, figuring that was my life situation, after all (never admitting to being gay, but denying it to myself).

In my newly single life, of course, I had great freedom, and I ordered up subscriptions to two mail-order catalogs (International Male and Undergear) which sold underwear that was alluringly portrayed in the catalogs by a variety of young, good looking models. Naturally, my masturbatory fantasies were sated with these photos, and I began to tell myself things like, “If I ever did get together with a man in a sexual context, it would have to be someone who looked like him.” In that way, I was able to continue to deny my desires and my innermost feelings; all the while enjoying the fruits of my fantasies.

Dating had always been enjoyable for me. I love the company of women, and I certainly don’t think that women are unattractive. One of those who I dated, however, triggered something in me that became lasting. We only dated for about six months, but a few months in, she asked me, “Are you sure you’re not gay?” Naturally, I answered “no,” but even so, I was still enjoying my homosexual fantasies when home alone. She and I stopped dating at about the same time I decided to join the computer age. My first desktop took me to places I had known about but never experienced – chat rooms.

At first, my chat experiences were mundane. I was feeling out the territory to see how this new technology worked, how it would fit into my life and what impact it might have on me. Within a month or so, I had found a couple of chat rooms that openly discussed sexual topics. The Instant Message also became a part of my life, and I found myself chatting privately with other men. These were usually pretty basic discussions, but in a short time they became more sexually explicit and there were discussions about mutual masturbation and other sexual activities that two men could engage in.

My homosexual desires were again coming to the fore, and I decided to relent – to find another man with whom I could investigate these urges. In a short while, I made contact with a man named Steve, and he and I agreed to a meeting at his home. That first meeting was moving slowly at first, and we simply sat on the couch and chatted for a while, until Steve asked if I’d like to step into his bedroom. Since that was the sole purpose for which I was visiting, I agreed that it was the thing to do. Needless to say, he and I settled into his bed and I enjoyed my first sexual contact with another man in about 25 years. I had participated in two quick trysts in my early 20s, but they had not gone well, and I deemed my “experimentation” over at that time.

In the next few years, I met and bedded down with several other men. One of them was a married man named Bill, with whom I came to enjoy what seemed to be a burgeoning relationship. His schedule was flexible enough that he was able to visit with me at various times of day, and I can say with certainty that he and I truly cherished one another’s attention. After knowing Bill for about three years, his wife died. Within a couple of days, he was in my bed, wrapped in my arms, as I tried to comfort him in his pain. Though he’d been married for many years, he told me that he knew he’d moved away from her sexually and I thought, truthfully, that he was, potentially, “the one” for me.

Consoling Bill in his loss, however, didn’t bring him closer to me, as I thought it would. I was baffled and not pleased when he broke off contact with me suddenly. Unfortunately, he had never shared his phone number with me (I didn’t have caller ID), nor his surname. So my desire to reach out to him went unfulfilled. To this day, I have not seen Bill again. For a few fleeting moments, I truly thought that he would end up as my life partner in a gay relationship. The disappointment I felt stayed with me for a long time.

Several years have passed, and the internet still beckons me with its pornography. I am not a regular viewer, and I don’t have a web cam, so not all of the available technology has affected me. There are a few specific gay websites that I am an occasional visitor to, for the purpose of fulfilling my masturbatory fantasies. There is no doubt the hold that pornography has on the world, and I am certainly witness to it. I cannot speak of “straight” porn, as I have no interest in viewing unclothed women. The only sites I visit are exclusively gay, and though never partnered (nor “out” to the world at large), I date men only.

Is pornography conducive to a gay man’s coming out? From my perspective, I have to say that it has had that sort of impact. Were it not so readily available, my masturbatory fantasies might not have been fulfilled, my acceptance of being gay might not have come to fruition. Gay porn’s hold on me has been clear. Even now, between opportunities to engage with another man, when the desire envelops me, it’s to the pornographic sites I gravitate. Although the allure of photographs of other men is nowhere near as enticing as the real thing, it’s obvious that one can anticipate the excitement of a face-to-face coupling.

It’s a brief stop online that entices and temporarily satisfies. The magazine industry as a whole has suffered from decreased readership, in large part due to the ease of access that most of us have to the internet. Many periodicals have ceased print production and now appear online only. Despite the seeming disappearance from newsstands of many of the traditional “skin magazines” we used to buy up, pornography is a powerful economic force in the world on a continuing basis, as well as a major contributing factor (at least in one case) in the coming-out of gay men.

Protecting Youth From Pornography

Here’s a big, ugly word: Pornography…

But in today’s world, maybe it’s not said enough — it’s the big ugly elephant in the room that feels awkward to talk about, yet it’s beginning to consume our culture… Not convinced?† Here are some disturbing statistics:

25% of all search engine requests are pornographic.
Average age a child fist sees porn online: 11
35% of all Internet downloads are pornographic.
Most popular day for viewing porn: Sunday.
12% of all websites are pornographic.

(source = Online MBA)

So why in the world would I write about pornography? Good question. I have a concern on my heart about how this slimy industry is impacting our youth. Plus, having an technical background gives me an in-depth understanding of how the Internet works, and how the perpetrators are repetitively on the hunt for victims to lure into their sludge pit of easily accessible sin. I desperately want to protect the youth from this horrible industry!

Most reading this can probably remember back to their first exposure to pornography — it’s a memory that tends to become burned into ones brain. For me, I was around 13 — I came across stack of magazines someone had left in the desert behind my house. That was then and, WOW, has it ever changed. Today, a person doesn’t even have to hunt for it. A simple typo into your web browser will lead you to some pretty bad stuff. Even worse, if one is “on the hunt” for porn, a three second Google search will take you directly into the unsavory world. Yes, the 80′s are but a memory!

Enter today’s teenager –

Tech savvy teens with uncontrolled hormones, growing up in a self-serving society with sex and pornography around every corner is a recipe that concerns me deeply. It’s saddening to think that many children will get their first lesson on sexuality, in the sinful form, because they typed “.com” instead of “.gov”. Think of that statistic — 11 years old. And the lifelong impact that could have on them — ugh!

So what can be done? First, let me say, I am following my heart here. I’m not a doctor, counselor, nor theological scholar. I am your everyday family man, IT guy and business owner. I love Jesus and I love working with the youth at our Church and seeing them develop a hunger for Christ. It’s so very, deeply saddening to my heart and soul to think of the damage this industry does to kids.

So with all that, my thoughts.. it’s part what I call a “spiritual ecosystem”… Are you ready? You’ve come this far, you can’t bail on me now! Here we go…

Reality check – We have to assume that, at some point, kids will come across pornography — some way, some how, they will see it. The goal is:

Not to avoid the discussion. Give kids an early spiritual-perspective of God’s healthy intention for sex — between a man and wife. Get that burned into the brain before they get the pornographers distorted version. Pray with them! Pray for their strength in Christ.

Protect them from seeing it as long as possible (no brainier, right?). But the goal here is, when they do come across it, they are more are more spiritually mature, and again, their first version came from a Christian adult. Not the pornographer.

Kids are technical – Understand that many kids are technically savvy enough that if they want to find it, they can. There are ways around just about everything you think will block it, and chances are your kids can find out how to get around the block faster than you can. So, I think it’s critical that Step 1 take place (tonight?) to help prevent a child from developing a hunger for this form of sin. It’s difficult one to break away from, and even more difficult for them to ask for help, should they fall prey.

Control their visual input — For boys especially. I think I speak for most of the guys out there when I say our brains come pre-wired to think visually. It’s only after perusing Christ that we begin to use our frontal lobe and appreciate the opposite gender as a spiritual creation of God – and it’s still a struggle for many. Unfortunately, if your home is stacked with tabloid magazines full of half dressed celebrities, or you watch TV shows that push the boundaries of legally acceptable programming, you might be testing the male frontal lobe more than you think. Please consider the effect that has on the people in your household. I’m convinced that repetitive risque imagery has a more detrimental impact to spiritual decision making, than people think.

Trust but verify – I’m a firm believer that parents should perform surprise reviews of web histories, texts, Facebook & twitter, and question if it’s been suddenly “cleared”. I can’t remember who said it, but think of it this way, “deleting your web history doesn’t hide it from Jesus” (I think I heard it on KLOVE). Next, don’t limit your checking to just your home computer, keep an eye on smart devices like iTouch, iPhones, Android phones, tablets, or anything else capable of getting to the web. Yes, the pornographers are there, too, just waiting.

Monitor – Continuing on with the “verify” concept, I would suggest using a tool like OpenDNS (I’m not affiliated with them in anyway, it’s just a tool that I personally use and like). This is probably the most under-rated form of monitoring internet activity – from stealth to alarm bells (not literally, but you get the idea). Again, there are ways around this too, but it has multiple levels of configuration and will monitor all the web traffic in and out of your home, even if it cleared from a browser. If you set it up on your homes wifi router, it will even catch the smart device traffic that connects to it.

The Basic Science of Pornography Addiction

There are 5 main brain chemicals associated with pornography addiction and each has their own function within pornography addiction. They are Dopamine, Adrenaline, Serotonin, Prolactin and Oxytocin.


Dopamine is the main chemical pushing porn addiction; is a “neurotransmitter” (which simply means “a chemical in the body that carries a signal or impulse from one nerve cell to another”) and plays a huge role in all our lives whether we are addicts or not. Dopamine is, amongst many other things (such as being involved in everything from regulating movement to the control of attention) the chemical that gives us “expectation buzzes”. This buzz could be for the cake we fancy on the sweet trolley in a restaurant when we are still eating our main meal; the chase in sexual encounters; what can drive people to buy lottery tickets; the thrill we feel when we know we are going on our holidays soon or, in addiction, is (in part) the desire for the next fix of the wet, dry or behavioral drug we are addicted to. It is also the brain chemical behind the thrill when gossiping; the rush we feel when we hear a celebrity scandal or when we want to buy a tabloid to read what is on the front cover. Bottom line, dopamine is all about expectation and wanting (as opposed to necessarily liking) which is what can make it an incredibly destructive chemical when it comes to addiction. Dopamine is not about levels of pleasure per se. It’s about expectation and what, for instance, drives lust.

Dopamine loves novelty anything new and interesting… The newest car, game, sexual conquest, movie… A person could have a spike in dopamine just thinking of watching the next movie whilst still watching the current movie. Dopamine is behind the drive for more and more scenes when in a pornography binge and why a pornography addict will keep on clicking to see more and more images or videos as they get a surge of dopamine with anything novel and new. In response, the Pornography Industry has to keep upping the ante with its content to keep addict’s interest and money and why studios like Evil Angel – who specialize in the more extreme and taboo end of the market – are so profitable. Dopamine is also the chemical responsible for the motivating feeling behind the thought that you will be paid handsomely at the end of a rough pornography scene if you are a pornography performer…

We are all hooked on dopamine to a certain degree. Dopamine can give life some of its loveliest and memorable moments (low dopamine levels are also associated with depression)… but can also create hell for us when we become addicted to a wet, dry or behavioral drug.

Addicts have damaged the reward circuitry in their brains and will feel less of a hit with their drug fixes over time as it now becomes harder and harder to stimulate their reward systems and will therefore need more and more of the drug to get the same effect. Feeling less of a hit results in craving more of what will give the addict the same amount of “pleasure” as they had before it decreased… (remember dopamine is all about expectation and wanting – as opposed to necessarily liking – most addicts despise the lives they live when in active addiction yet still go back time and time again for more).

In addiction, new neural pathways are created in the addict’s brain which become, over time, about taking the path of least resistance. The rational side of the brain that understands about consequences subsequently becomes weaker over time too as the neural pathways that once ran the show are weakened as the addiction escalates and a tug of war will end up ensuing between the higher self and lower self. Levels of dopamine always decline over the course of an addict’s addiction career and the ante is always upped to get more as a result.

When you think that the definition of pornography is “Material whose primary purpose is to create sexual arousal” then it is easy to understand how the role of dopamine fits into that as dopamine is also released during genital orgasm as well as in the prelude to the orgasm. The more pornography a person does the more dopamine gets released which in turn reinforces the behavior and means the person not only desires it at some point in the future but requires it. The more porn a person does, the more they masturbate to orgasm and the more dopamine is released which further deepens the addictive cycle. It’s a feedback loop which becomes more and more difficult to escape from. The person then needs more extreme material to get sexually aroused which is when reality becomes the turn off and “boring”.


With dopamine in the driving seat of porn addiction, the need for more and more of it will take a person through some traumatising viewing material. With each new brutal or shocking image, the body releases the fight or flight hormone adrenaline to help the person cope with the trauma of what they have just witnessed on the screen.

You’ve heard of the term “adrenaline junkie”? Well that term applies just as much in porn addiction as it does for dangerous outdoor pursuits. Porn addicts – over time – also become addicted to adrenaline and will have to seek out ever more perverse, grotesque, violent, disturbing and illegal pornography to keep getting the same effect – just as adventurers have to do ever more dangerous acts to get their hits of adrenaline.

During this process the profoundly shocking pornography they are now forced to view by their addiction which many addicts would never have believed that they would have ever viewed once porn that assaults their souls can seem exciting pre-ejaculation/ orgasm. Once they have orgasmed though, addicts can now see what is on their screens and are often horrified and retraumatised by it.

And the whole sorry cycle just keeps getting worse and worse to the point that the only taboo pornography left to look in the end – which will give the adrenaline trauma hit addicts need – will be child pornography. When you have reward circuitry that is numb – which is what all active addicts have – the person will do anything to jack up the chemicals they need to feel less numb.

Whenever adrenaline is released in the body, whatever a person or animal is doing or looking at during those moments are burnt into the psyche. This is the reason why porn addicts can be haunted by porn images they have seen long after they stop viewing pornography. This is also the reason, on the positive side, why some beautiful sexual (or other) memories are remembered too. If the heart was beating faster at that time due to the release of adrenaline in the body, those memories too, will be burnt into the psyche.


Oxytocin is the chemical that is released when a Mother and her new born baby are bonding after birth. Psychology Professor Ruth Feldman from Bar-Ilan University in Israel is at the forefront of oxytocin research. She has spent years studying oxytocin’s role in the mother-child bond as well as the role oxytocin plays in romantic bonds. Prof Feldman says “The increase in oxytocin during the period of falling in love was the highest that we ever found.” Prof Feldman concluded that “Romantic relationships can have a profound effect on adult’s health and well being whereas the inability to maintain intimate bonds has been associated with physical and emotional distress. Studies in monogamous mammals underscore the central role of oxytocin in pair bonding and human imaging studies implicate oxytocin in early romantic love… Oxytocin is known to promote trust, bonding and attachment between adults and between parents and their offspring… ”

Oxytocin is also known as the “cuddle hormone” or the “bonding chemical”. When two people are healthily bonding, masses of oxytocin is released and this is what will lay the foundations of a lifetime bond between the two people whether that person is a partner or a friend. It is necessary to keep doing the things which laid those foundations though for the bonds to endure as less oxytocin is released when there are problems in our relationships and it stops altogether when relationships end and this is part of the reason we feel so much agony within ourselves at the endings of those close relationships.

The trouble with pornography is that viewers become bonded – through oxytocin – with porn performers; particular photos or scenes and especially bonded with their porn stash as oxytocin is released during porn viewing. This is the reason porn addicts struggle to get rid of their stash once they make the decision to quit porn. Because of the oxytocin bond, it can feel like a death.

People can become bonded to anything that makes them feel good – from DJs on the radio to the local shop-keeper who makes them feel good by smiling at them. Where good feelings and pleasure are involved, bonding is always possible. And nowhere is that more ironically relevant than in pornography use.


Serotonin is often called “natural Prozac” and is released after sexual climax and what makes a person feel satisfied. This is the chemical responsible for men falling asleep after ejaculating and what many porn addicts use (without them realising that this is what they are doing) to help them fall asleep after a porn bender as it relaxes them. The hormone releases a person from stress for a while and why a calmness is felt after genital orgasm. Serotonin is also an inhibitor to dopamine which basically means it stops its release.


Prolactin is also an inhibitor to dopamine stopping its production in the body – and is released into the body post genital orgasm and what brings an end to traditional sexual intercourse. Prolactin is the chemical responsible for people who have just had sex desperately wanting to get away from each other.

If couples do not genitally orgasm, prolactin is not released.

Prolactin is also the chemical responsible for what is often called “post coital blues” which is the depression that comes for a few days post genital orgasm in both males and females. When in the “honeymoon mating frenzy” period of a relationship, we remain strongly bonded by high oxytocin levels and quickly overcome our “hormonal blues” (prolactin releases) by having more sex (therefore dopamine rushes).

Often in porn addiction – to counter that depression – porn addicts will begin another binging cycle to get the dopamine flowing in their bodies again and the whole cycle begins again. Depression at this point will come to be seen as a normal state and often not even recognised as even being depression especially if the addict starts taking anti-depressants.

The same is the case with couples in the early stages of their relationships. They will have frequent sex because of the novelty involved with the new relationship (the dopamine factor). If each sex session then has a genital orgasm, the whole dopamine-prolactin cycle will be going on there too and why as the relationship settles in, many people often start losing interest in sex with their partner as the novelty has worn off and begin to drift apart and/ or the two people start to look for someone else someone novel – so dopamine can start flowing in their bodies again because it is at this point that the lows of prolactin are now felt. That is prolactin in action and usually has nothing to do with how compatible the two people are with each other or their core relationship. This behavior is the same in humans, primates, mammals and reptiles because as Kruger et al explain, it originates in the primitive part of our brain.

Pornography Industry Provides Degradation to Women

I used to watch pornography all the time. I used to enjoy it. A growing boy trying to understand what women like, its definitely common to become consumed into that type of world. I used to take notes and visualize me in that scenario and what I would do sexually to my future partner. Overtime I realized that not all women liked it nor did it the same way they do in pornography. I realized that in an embarrassing way because I used to believe that women enjoyed it that way therefore the woman on the screen symbolized what all women wanted. Boy was I wrong! I was glad I was wrong, I am glad that I got to grow up and become mature enough to realize that it is the total opposite.

Women want a guy that is a gentleman, someone that will be gentle with them, make them feel good about themselves. I think the pornography industry preys on young women and in a sense preys upon young men and lonely older men that have no partner. They expect us to sign into the website, pay our monthly fee and then enjoy what their product has to offer. Showing images and videos of women of all races and ages and body sizes engaging in sexual acts and doing any type of position or category involved in pornography. Basically performing in any type of act that the producer or cameraman wants them to perform.

I used to enjoy it because like I said, I was a growing boy taking notes and enjoying the product in my private time but overtime I realized that its just a gross way of earning money and it also offends many religious groups and the parents television council. Sure it is the model’s choice whether she wants to engage in these sexual acts but it doesn’t make it right on any count. Sure everyone needs money, especially in today’s economy, but to prostitute yourself for money over the internet in front of a camera showing off your body to who knows who, just makes you seem like a desperate human being that craves attention.

Sure I still look at pornography from time to time, and I believe in a woman’s right to choose. What is so great about the United States is that anyone can choose what they want to be and how they want to live their life, and if a woman chooses to perform sexual acts in front of a camera than that is her prerogative and I have no choice but to respect that choice. I respect all women and think they can do amazing things in this world. I wish all women the best of luck in this tough man dominated place we call Earth, but at the same time I know that women can be smarter and more successful than men. Hopefully they realize they are more than just a means of entertaining a man and that they are more important. For then and only then will they truly realize their full worth. To all women, I love you and respect you and know that each and every one of you are above the pornography industry. I believe that with all of my heart and soul.

Pornography And Vice For Teens – Is It Getting Worse

It is really appalling how around the world, the age of people being exposed to pornography and to various forms of vices keeps going down with the intensity going up. It seems that younger people exhibit substantial knowledge about these types of things…much more so than in years previous. One might see preteens getting pregnant, loitering around corners gambling and with cigarettes dangling from their mouths, engaging in gang fights, or strolling along the streets drunk. There is even news of a two-year old smoking marijuana with a video taken by the parents themselves! Not even the more liberated countries could probably fathom this.

On a personal note, it is believed that a lot of this could be attributed to the diverse forms of media now made even more readily available to these children. For one, there is the internet. Just one click is needed and everything a child needs to know and ought not to know is presented before his very eyes. On the other hand we have radio, television and print media. A child need not ever learn his ABCs in order for him to be able to identify himself with what he sees and hears from any of these materials.

It is even more disconcerting that businesses and industries are taking advantage of these children as great markets for their goods and services through the use of advertisements. But of course, children are the best promotional tools with just a few bats of their lashes, a smile, or a few whines perhaps, and they could immediately get their parents or any adult to shell out money for their sake.

Actually, what is most upsetting are the parents themselves. It is what they do, what they allow to be done and what they fail or refuse to do to their kids that deserve careful scrutiny by the public and the government especially.

There is an outbreak going on with the spread of these awful influences. I do not know about you, but I’m worried about the future now. What I am seeing is our hope for a better and brighter future slowly slipping away from our hands, and it scares the hell out of me.

100% Free Adult Amateur Films

The free adult porn market is pretty much thriving these days and more and more sites pop-up in this industry every day. The vids which they host are virtually mind-blowing and folks like them. On every single free porn page can be found a specific number of categories that will help you look for the vids that you like the most.

The grouping that in some way seems to turn me on is the Amateur. Amateur 100% free porn vids are simply astounding – there are no words and phrases in any way to explain a home made video with you and your girl making love in the craziest way possible. I absolutely am into these clips and i confess that I check out them once in a while. From them fresh approaches can be mastered for pleasing your lover better. All of these 20min clips can actually be considered as being educational vids from where you are able to understand how to do it much better, how to protect yourself and what things you mustn’t do during intercourse.

Almost all free porn amateur vids possess a little something exclusive that makes them one of the most wished-for. Looking at how unprofessional folks start kissing, touching, undressing, looking at them how they’re making real love – this stuff can’t be found in not one other free porn category and i also consider that amateur vids are worthy of the 1st place in any cost-free adult porn category countdown.

What I enjoy the most about free porn amateur vids would be the approach they’re done: through the help of a cellphone or a digicam or even using the webcam of the Personal computer or laptop computer. What I enjoy a lot more is the fact that all those people who have sex on the camera post their video on the internet, on specialized free porn webpages which host this kind of clips and can earn some cash from it… very cool! Try out such a vid on your own and hit me up – inform me what you think of it and from a scale from 1 to 10, just how great the amateur category is.

Escalating Porn Addiction and Criminal Thoughts

Pre-Internet, young addicts would steal porn magazines from the top shelves of newsagents. Post-Internet – according to my 2 years of research into porn addiction – this is tame compared to what goes through their heads to do to act out their escalating pornography addictions. Many are becoming deeply scared of their own minds and addictions. One man wrote “I have deep dark desires that I wish to fulfil which are even stronger than my porn addiction.” Another man wrote “I am severely depressed. I am now having horrible thoughts of hurting myself and my girlfriend and doing horrible violent things in general. I am 24.”

Depending upon what they have been exposed to in their journey through the bowels of Internet pornography determines what they soon begin feeling compelled to do next when they have become desensitized with purely legal acting out behaviors. Many addicts at this stage fear their next bender could tip them over the edge into doing illegal things as they begin to find it harder and harder to disassociate from the porn world.

It starts with relatively “mild” fears such as a 19 year old who wrote “I’m frightened I’ll become a pervert when I grow up. I’ve been doing porn since I was 14″ to older addicts writing things such as “I now want to see women urinating on toilets after seeing a lot of urine porn and am scared I will act out by setting up a camera in a women’s toilet”. Another (white) man wrote “It’s gotten to the point where I now fantasise that I am a white woman being raped by multiple black men as well as being one of the rapists too.”

One female porn addict wrote “It’s escalating now to an obsession with putting myself in dangerous situations so I can be raped”. Another addict who had a history of physical and sexual abuse and being degraded as a child had the desire to be “killed at the hands of a lover”.

Another 18 year old man wrote “Only drowning and suffocating porn can satisfy me now. I fear I will become a serial killer and I doubt my morality.” Equally as disturbing were the words of a young student who wrote “I’ve got to the point now where bondage videos are not violent enough to satisfy me. I sit in class and think of strangling the woman in front of me.” This man was understandably banned off the forum he wrote this on but my question is “what happened to him?”… Did he ever act out his thoughts?

Another tormented porn addict wrote “Until I saw bestiality porn, I had never wanted to be sexual with an animal. I loved animals and was brought up with them. Now I am acting out with my own dogs and want to put them up for adoption so I can stop this sexual abuse. I want to be able to view my dogs as pets – nothing more. They deserve so much better than this. I’m at breaking point.”

Other escalating pornography addicts become obsessed with being in risky situations like exposing themselves and/ or masturbating in public places. Some addicts will masturbate in back rows of theatres or picture houses or in their car when they stop at the lights. It gives them the arousal they need to be able to reach a new peak that ordinary virtual porn can no longer give them as well as giving them adrenaline hits their addiction needs. One man was being driven by his addiction to expose himself to 10-15 year olds. He wrote “I already do this with women although I pretend I don’t know they can see me. I cannot believe how damaged I am. It happens a lot when I am under pressure or stressed. If I don’t “do the deed” I get very agitated, angry and frustrated. When I do it I get relief but then shame and anger set in and I just want to lock myself away.”

Another addict wrote “I’m so worried about going to jail over all my sexual urges and ideas of the things I want to do. I’m still in school and sometimes masturbate on the bus when the urge comes on me and I can’t control it. I’m scared it will get me into some kind of legal trouble. I then watch porn all night long.”

Other addicts – after watching incest porn – have tormenting urges around family members. One 29 year old addict wrote after watching “mother and son” porn… “In my dreams now, my mother is breast feeding me. I’ve become fascinated with her breasts and am scared I’m going to act out on it and touch or grab her breasts. I also want to take photos and videos of her breasts.” Another addict wrote “I watch mother and son porn, daughter and father porn and sister and brother porn. I escalated to this and am now having intrusive incestual thoughts about my mother and other family members. I am scared I am going to act out on them. I tell myself this is the last time I am going to watch porn due to where it is taking me but I always fall back into it again – the porn. I am scared. When I was younger I was exposed to porn and re-enacted what I saw with another boy and why I am scared now.”

Another terrified addict wrote “Since being exposed to brother/ sister rape porn I have had thoughts about raping my sister. I am heading down a very dangerous and horrible road. I don’t want to be a rapist or a murderer and I certainly don’t want to do this with my sister. Now I feel incredibly awkward around her and have no emotional attachment to her anymore. I fear in the future though that porn will not be enough for me and I may actually rape someone. I really don’t want to be a monster yet I fear that may happen in the future. I’m now, as a result, having frequent suicidal thoughts.”

More disturbing is when severely escalating addicts begin to find that “adult” porn – however depraved – is no longer a big enough of an arousal to satisfy their addiction’s needs so move closer and closer to illegal pornography. One addict wrote “I constantly feel paranoid as some sites have questionable videos of what look like underage girls”. Another wrote “I take myself to the edge of legal porn and then am enticed to 100% illegal material via links that come without warning. The crossover is done in a second. There is, bottom line, no safe way to look at porn. I have to completely disengage. It’s evil shit and makes me feel suicidal… I am a compromised human who has abandoned morality. We click in our own chains while weighing down our souls by feeding off the poisonous digital imagery of unspeakable misery of the most vulnerable in our world”.

One addict on the edge of legal and illegal porn wrote this “I’m paranoid I’ll open the wrong page and get arrested as I’m paranoid I’m being watched by Big Brother. I’m paranoid I’m turning into a dirty old man. It’s no fun anymore.”

Another wrote “I don’t feel safe with myself anymore.” Their fears are because once the crossover has taken place to child pornography, they feel they have truly become “monsters”. One man wrote “I feel like a monster by who I’ve become. I AM a monster”. Another wrote “This addiction is starting to frighten me more and more. Today I googled “12 to 15 year old lesbians”. I now feel sickened and can’t believe I searched for it. Urges that can put these sorts of fantasies in your brain are pure evil.” Another addict wrote “It’s getting worse. The other night I couldn’t sleep because I downloaded something illegal” whilst another said “I’ve escalated to child porn. If I don’t stop I will end up in suicide. I was abused as a child too… ”

One man wrote “I’m beginning to stare at teenagers. I try my hardest not to but it’s tearing me apart. God spare me from my worst. This disease is the pits.” Another addict wrote “I started using porn when I was 7 or 8 and am now 41 and it is destroying my life. It started off with your every day run of the mill porn but in the last 8-10 years it’s escalated. I find myself drawn more and more to younger girls to the point where I search out illegal child pornography images on the net. I live every day in hell, fear and self loathing. I feel like an out of control monster.”

Another addict wrote “during more difficult times in my life, I need much more hardcore porn to get the same effect and I’m finding more and more that illegal stuff is in my head. My self worth is almost non-existent. I’m 18. I also pull my hair out and ignore hunger. I watch porn daily.”

And then one day, addicts become desensitized to child pornography too and begin fantasizing about acting out with children. One man wrote “I’m beginning to get really strong urges to act out. Unless I get control of it soon I’ll end up in prison.” Another addict wrote “I role play in chat rooms where I talk about hitting young girls while they’re being raped. Every time I finish I’m always ashamed but then I dismiss it because it’s the Internet and there’s much worse stuff out there but I still feel weird. Daily I watch incest porn and violent sex porn like rape. I’m also attracted to 12-13 years olds now too. Not a soul knows about my dark secrets and all my friends think I’m completely normal.”

Professor Gail Dines, Professor of Sociology at Wheelock College in Boston, who has studied both pornography addicts and the pornography industry for decades and is author of the book “Pornland: How Porn Has Hijacked Our Sexuality”, interviewed a number of men in prison who had committed rape on children and found that all the men were habitual users of child pornography. Dr Dines said in an interview with Julie Bindel of The Guardian (2nd July 2010) “What they said to me was they got bored with “regular” porn and wanted something fresh. They were horrified at the idea of sex with a pre-pubescent child initially but within 6 months they had all raped a child”.